Who was I four years ago?

This is the purpose of this blog haha. 

I want to record my thoughts and thought processes as I age. Sadly, it took me this long to be able to put that into words lol.

5/16/2013

Ahh…damn it. I think I’m about to get my first B in like seven years haha. What the hell, it doesn’t matter anymore. I understand the subject enough. This is the problem with large schools. To create a normal curve, you test the student’s study habits rather than the student’s knowledge. Then you make a mass of mindless students that only can regurgitate material instead of formulate their own questions. I know I was one of them. It was hell for me haha. Never again. I don’t ever want to have to do that again to get a grade. There is a serious problem with the education system. 

 I finally have a term to put with my goal, it is call health disparities! I feel so ignorant! Global health disparities…Now, I need to do some further poking around to scope down which side of disparities to focus on. I went in to see another advisor a couple days back on, discussed global health. 

I told the advisor, I really wanted to just jump in and get some experience. But he told me it’d be hard for me because I have no background in this field. In terms of helping me find an internship or some sort of connection directly linked, i’d have to wait until I take some courses.  Ugh goddam, that’s like a whole year. I really. don’t want to wait. This education systems is not up to par… Why hold back your students? Why restrict our curiosity? Why? I’m going to have to find nontraditional ways to get some experience. I cannot wait a year. 

 Anyway, i think my talk confirms my switch. Eff you traditional sciences. No, I really do still love you, but you’re too high maintenance! hahahaha. Maybe one day, you’ll become a little more lax. 

Last exam tomorrow!!! So long first year…It was a great mess of a scribble for me. But I’d like to think that I have come up wiser.